So I finally went on BCP and Welbutrin. I am starting to feel better but each day holds the threat of tears and anger and sadness and anxiety and fear. When will this be over? What terms do I need to come to? With myself? My husband? My body? My God?
I am seeing a therapist once a week and that is helping. I need to learn how to cope and get on with it. Every year this happens, but this year, with the losses, it has been harder than ever.
I am thinking that maybe I need to create a memorial for our three angels and look to C for more support. I know he is sad, but now I am worried, is he as sad as I am? I hope not.
What does our future hold? Are we destined for Children? Is this in God's plan? Who has that answer? Will it come to me in a dream? Will I just wait it out until the spring when we try again? Will I be able to hold out till spring before we try?
I am going to investigate some more reasons as to what causes miscarriages. I want to have more tests run and even thinking about going to Detroit to have tests done and what not.
HMMMMM Time to investigate costs!!
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